I want to just forget. Forget him, forget everything.
Why can't you be there for me? Why do you cover up my memories with lies?
It hurts that much? revel in the pain, you weak little man.
I want to heap pain on you, so you can finally feel.
Know what I know.
Hear what I hear.
Cry what I cry.
I am alone.
Because I am with you.
My babies are dead.
My boyfriend asked them to die.
I wanted him to be happy.
I wanted to protect him from pain.
Little did I know…..we can't protect each other from pain. We can just support you as it happens.
How foolish I am! How absolutely foolish!
To want something so badly, and to give yourself up so completely to get it.
I sold my soul to the devil.
And I miss you, my children. I can never get you back.
But I will flail myself until I bleed wishing for it.
