Bucket List

Dec 29th, 2016

Dear Nisha,

I've been arranging a song for my aCapella choir. I was arranging "Rooftop - A Liberation Broadcast" but I recently heard "I Lived" which is far more popular in the US, and more easily arrangeable. I'd like to include it somehow in this arrangement, but it might be difficult. The song says everything I want to be feeling.

I love arranging music, and was musical director of a college group when I lived in Iowa. I say this, because right now, Aaron is on my mind, and rather than writing music for the sheer joy of it, which is how I would normally do it, a little voice inside myself says, "He's going to be there, at the next Techapella, and when he is, he'll hear your piece. Well, he'll have to fall in love with you then." I suppose by that logic there will be many people that will "fall in love with me," like that other gentleman from Steven's group that complimented my 'enthusiasm' and asked if I had a sister. After having watched the video Steven took, it became clear that my 'enthusiam' was centered around my top half.

Well, arranging these songs and remembering my talk with Aaron has reminded me of the time that Steven and I made a bucket list (which I promptly lost, because that's what I do) I'll make a new one....here it is.

My Bucket List:
Produce my own musical to be performed for at least 2,000 people.
Be on a TV, talking about what it's like to be a female muslim American.
Be a lead in a musical. (Frl. Schneider in Cabaret)
Do it again, but for a bigger audience! (10, 000 people)
Finish a 12 song album of music created by me.
Save the bats.
Get down to 145 lbs. without being depressed.
Finish my magnum opus of a video game (The White Knight)
Finish the choose your own adventure game that encourages diversity and women in tech.
Perform one of my arrangements at Techapella.
Get my own solo in Techapella!
Climb Mt. Fuji (with Mari is preferable)
Watch my baby's first piano recital/band performance
Look at my baby's first web page.
Beat Majora's Mask for the first time with my baby.
Travel to Japan, Austria, France, New Zealand, Australia, Brazil, Germany, Egypt, Jerusalem, Qatar, Poland, India, Russia (to see the Kremlin)...oh! and the little mermaid statue.

Oh! I want to make a blog where I travel to every location in Mario is Missing! (snes) and take a picture of myself dressed up with my SO and my kid as Mario and Luigi with pictures of all the lost locations. There's a game grumps version, but this one is much more informative: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_AOw6va93o

I've already seen all the places they mention in China, and I don't particularly like China, but if it's to take my future husband and child, I will definitely go again. Besides, like it or not, China is one of the biggest cultures in the entire world, and has a lot of influence. Appreciating the culture a bit more is a big priority.

Having sex with a Japanese guy (though I'd be willing to drop this if I needed to...Why can't I ever get with someone who is as physically affectionate as I am?)

I find myself feeling limited by the scope of my dreams. Can I dream bigger? Better? Will that help me fulfill my dreams if I can do so? Part of me doesn't want to put anything on the paper because I'm afraid I won't achieve it...

I added some numbers to my dreams to make them a little bigger, maybe that would be good.