Venn Zoned

So, dear Nisha, I am currently sitting at the P.F.Chang's on Bay Street in Emeryville, close to where I landed when I first arrived in California, two and a half years ago. It's hard to believe it was that long ago, back before it seemed to matter what my reproductive organs were doing or not, and before I even knew I wanted to be a programmer.

Maybe I'll tire of it, but unlike most things I try to do, it just comes naturally. It's challenging, granted, but in the sort of way that a video game is. I get into a zone that I can't get out of unless I successfully solve the problem.

Speaking of Zones, that's what this conversation is about Nisha. If you will bear with me, you are much more patient than anyone I know, thank you for that.

Aside from mental zones, I am in a weird friend-zone place with all my potential love interests. Steven and I are still a couple, but he is testing out our...

Man, Nisha, I've suddenly become so sleepy. It's not you! You're absolutely great! We've been friends for so long! I'm just...I didn't sleep well yesterday. I hung out with Aaron yesterday. I managed to score a 'date' because I had gotten sad about Steven going on a dinner date with Tran, a Vietnamese girl he's been going out with recently. It scares me that I was rewarded for being sad, but it did improve my mood by day and night. 

All night Aaron kept me asking how I was, I didn't know what to say. The truth is, I was sad that no one was head-over-heals in love with me like I wanted to be with them. I had been for one, wonderful week. I know some people will never be as lucky for even a week of that kind of love, but I want it back so much. I said ok to being Aaron's friend; he told me to just keep texting him even if he doesn't respond, so I do, even though I feel weak for it. I've been enjoying his company now that I'm feeling comfortable around him. He walked me through getting my Linode server up and running! And this is where I get confused.... Steven jokes that he's trying to seduce me the same way he seduced me, they both even try CS-related pickup lines. My heart leaps at the thought of it, but honestly, I think Aaron is just trying to be helpful, and I'm just being hopeful. He talks so freely about our night together, as if he was just used to having sex with his friends. Well, I'm not. It was special in a way that I wish I could erase with something longer, and something more real.

I don't know why he suddenly lost interest, but with enough one-on-one 'friend' meetings, I think I'll find the truth. It was truly comfortable talking to him last night. And.... it was nice to have a friend again.

Oh! But I forgot to tell you why I was tired! He told me to download a video game, because we have a date to do some game designing!!!! I'm SO EXCITED MOBILE DEVELOPMENT!!!!