Furries

What up Nisha!

So.....I went to a furries meetup at the King of Clubs today with Nick. It was pretty fun. I met this dude name Cam who had horrible breath but bad a great attitude and was one of the better singers there. He kept insinuating that Nick and I were having sex, which unfortunately is not the case. You see...

It all began Friday. As you might remember, I was interrogating Nick about his open relationship and he whispered to me that he "Had sex with women." That's literally all he said. I was like...well that was uninteresting. But on the way home he invited me to the meet up, and I had high hopes for the night, to say the least.

Well, Monday comes along and when I ask him about it, he doesn't remember us ever taking about it from the drunken stupor I didn't realize he was in (he totally looks the same drunk or sober >_<) He gives me the info anyway, I tell him I'll meet him there.

Work is sucking. I've gotten all my RB's and the code seems to be error free, but every time I push to prod, my pcs fails, then my pcl fails. I don't know what's going on but I really wanted it fixed before my surgery tomorrow. I'm about to lose it with mint when Nick texts me to let me know he's there.

Well, I'm running late! I bike home as fast as I can, pick up my car to visit Yuji at the hospital first. He seems much better, but he seems to be trying to appease me more than anything....*sigh* As soon as I leave, who knows what will happen. They have him on 300mg of Lithium 3x a day. If 300mg is the lowest dose, 900mg is the highest. Chris is concerned that he's faking his compliance too, but even having the ability to fake it is a sign he's recovering.

Even as crazy as he is, I want to feel him against me, but I pull myself away, giving him a nice show in my Slythine school skirt, and head to Furreoke. Nick is texting me where I am.

He looks great, in a black button down and dark khakis. He's called up immediately and he does both girl and boy parts to that opening song in La La Land. I want to jump up and join him, but I figure, maybe he wants to sing both parts? Idk. It's hard to read him sometimes, and the only way I know he appreciates my friendship is consistent acceptance of my invites, and now this most recent invitation.

After the song is done, we start talking and I ask him about Friday. I ask him about the women that's he's 'had sex with.' He looks....like something? Again, can't read, but I sense somethings up. "Are you sure you didn't just assume?" I don't know what I'd be assuming in this instance. "No you literally said 'I had sex with women.' That's all you said." "That's half right and half wrong," he replied. "I don't know what I said, but I only had sex with men. Two guys. Patricia gets jealous so I can only have sex with men."

Well, there goes that plan.

Nick and I go outside to talk and I ask him about how he and Patricia met. He begins the story with three failed college relationships, and at the end of the third one, his face finally changes. Barely perceptible, but his smile isn't as tight, and his eye stop moving as much, fixed out in front of him. As he remembers the loneliness he feels at this time, I finally feel something from him. Bright blue sorrow as quiet as a pond.

The story ends there for now, because a wolf man who's name is rather complicated and so I have forgotten interrupted to introduce himself to me. Nick promised we'd get together again and he'd finish the story. I was supposed to remember a secret passphrase. "Iron Horse" or something? Without any ending, I make up my own: that he's with Patricia, because Patricia will always be with him. I wonder how happy he is. I wonder why he tells me this stuff? I wonder when he had a chance to tell Aaron? But I do know why he and I were drawn together. And I wonder what will happen from here.