But he's so...I don't know. His whole motivation right now seems to be making me happy, but he never does anything that I want him to do to make me happy. Like literally the only thing I want from him is to start making good finacial sense. Return the random $500 phone you bought, use the money you have from your dad to pay off your $9000 in credit card debt, get a job. But instead, he's trying to make his house nice "for me." I don't even want to live in Sacremento. He's lost in his own little world and he just can't see it and it's driving me nuts. Because I want what he's offering so badly, but it's rancid, you know? It's another crazy guy who thinks I can save them, and I can't.
I was trying to get help concerning multi-line-truncate for artdeco from Hackmann, but Aaron overheard and offered his services instead. He commented that the only reason I had asked for Hackmann's help was to get his help, but I've kind of had it with Aaron. Not in a angry sort of way, just...I don't feel the drive to include him in my life like I once did. I can't depend on him and work and that was....it for me really. If I can't depend on him to return a slack message at work about work stuff so much that I have to go to someone else to get the job done, then I didn't want help from you anyway really.
I'm upset with myself for leaving so early today. I wanted to finish up the artdeco stuff based on what Aaron and I had talked about, but instead I went home and planned the trip to Iceland. I mean, that is also important. But now I'm sleepy. My parents I'm sure will be happy to know that it will be along time before I plan a trip overseas.
I'm excited to see my sister.
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